Where is life heading? It's weird to track it out. It's making me freak. I am sitting at the distance of 2400km and missing home badly. Really these feelings hurt. I know it's better to go back but life has its own trick to make you realize that you are so small against me. On the day of Holi, I was getting continuous call and each call was like a bullet. Everyone has a single question are you home I am coming to your place? Really, It was very odd for me. I could not say, "Hmm! Abe phone karke puch rahe ho, aa nahi sakte? jaldi aoo hum sab tumhara hi intezar kar rhe hai?".
But I don't understand myself that I am here to do the job. I was questioned in a telephonic interview," What is your salary expectation?" My answer was "MORE." The company HR was silent on my answer for a while and asked me to come at the office as soon as I could make. It's not all about the salary and environment. It's about the numbers, I like big, five or six digits don't satisfy me. It's all about the things I like to do. I believe in ups and down. Ups, to make me realize the importance of physical leisure and downs to make me furious about the situation and forcing me to seek the new ways. The city, where I am staying, is Bangalore. It's called the city of dream. The name is right. But I observed it closely, sorry observing is my bad habit and peoples complain me about this, and what I find here peoples come with dreams in their eyes and after few months they see their dreams disappearing from their eyes. Pathetic.... And after sometimes they become the crowd. I want to leave this city as soon as possible because I love my dreams and I never want to lose what I love.
Let me be true, here, my physical condition is very bad. I am under medication and if I don't care about my health and food I take, I invite more problems. And second thing I find myself that I don't need to have more exposure. I was brought up in poverty and this experience dwarfs any other exposure. I can survive in any place. But I don't want to survive rather I want to live. I am in my way to make a businessman. I am happy by getting positive response. I am in my way to be king of my own will. I want to forget the no. how many business I do. I am going to be rich and I never doubt it. My hunger is getting bigger and my risk appetite is being larger. It's weird to take risk for these emotions. One day my Papa wished to see my portfolio and after seeing that he became angry and threw many questions on me. "Are you mad? Where is your sense? Why there is only one company in your list?" My answer was simple big gain. This is not an easy task, you have to be dead for 1000 times and you have to kill your ego for thousands times. And the chap like me whose ego was like Antartica, is in share market. Really, it's weird.
