It has been so long I did not interact with most of you. I am a little bit busier, not like before because as I had to bunk class to take rest, in work. Here at home, I love being a businessman. I can sport professionalism and no one blames that you are being inhuman. I have to shut my eyes and mind for any relationship type of things during 9 a.m. to 7 p.m. Meanwhile no friends because such type of creature have ability to touch the heart and the big problem is with me I am week with heart. So, I stopped making friends, now I make only partner or coworker.
Sometimes few peoples claim to me , “Why do you not act with softness?” But this question does not matter with me. “Hate me or love me, I am that’s way”.
The things what matter most, the completion of work on time and fully satisfied customers. Alas!! This is not going to sustain longer because I have to leave Allahabad soon. This is only contract for few days and after that I am not allowed to remain longer in city, my father wants me to do job.
In evening time, after the work, I never forget to call my old friends or seeing them. I am lucky that I got few friends whom I can say, “they are my buddies.” They make me, me. Sometimes they make me laugh; they make me serious and sometimes sad. Sometimes they unfold old memories and sometimes they make wonderful memory to be treasured. Making practical jokes are common thing but sometimes they idiots dig the soft spot,” LOVE”. Sometimes, they make me remind her out of sudden. They know better I am very stubborn about the things from childhood… I like only one thing and don’t compromise with this. I should not have loved her but what I would do the love of first sight is very dangerous and I could not escape from it. I started loving her from very first day of college when Chandra sir was taking my introduction and she was smiling at my goofs and look. Today and that day are same for me because I have same feeling about her what I had that day. I am already desirous about her and they add fuel in fire by making me remember her. This is fact I love her but never want anything in return.
Once I asked her to be friend but she refused by saying it, “ Ab kya fayda!! Clg is over… hum log ja rahe hai.”
She was searching benefit in friendship. I know that I did some bad activities and she had to face some problems but finally I realized my mistakes and ask for apology. I appreciate that she gave me pardon so easily. I know she is good at heart but when I will be able to touch her heart, I don’t know.
I think I kept rattling on at this love thing. She would be angry when she will go through this blog. Once again I will make her angry. This is the problem with me whenever I want to do anything good, when she was concerned, always goes opposite from the intention.
Sometimes few college’s friends also come in memory. Few of them are in continuous touch via mail, msg, phone call and chatting. Sometimes few of them call from unknown no. to puzzle me and give hint to recognize and at the end of call the contact is updated. But there also few people who did not bother to give their new no. Such type of people are very ridiculous, they want to forget their past and past’s people but they forget one basic thing whatever they are today because of their past and peoples who helped them in any manner. And one major thing they are forgetting before forgetting their so called past, is that they are living in such a world called global village and in village’s peoples care much about. Nothing can be hidden from other villagers. So their updated no. come silently onto my cell in the form of message and this no. is also updated.
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Now, I tell you one accident. I was coming from Lucknow to Allahabad by train as usual in general coach packed with rush. There, I met with a guy coming back from counseling.
I figured it out on seeing the document with uptu’s logo. I pried him,” Are you coming from counseling?”
He corrected me and said, “I am not coming back from counseling, I went to take allotment later.”
“Which college did you chose?”, I questioned.
He answered with proud and smile, “Maharana Pratap Engineering College Kanpur” as he won red fort.
I was shocked that he was allotted MPEC and smiling. May he can see his dark future in mpec.
“Why did you choose this college? Did you not get any college in NCR? How this came in your mind to chose mpec?”, I threw a bunch of question on him.
He replied smartly, “The College in under 30 in u.p. and the placement is 100% and more than 60 companies came for campus placement this year including Infosys, tcs and wipro type top mncs. And in mpec companies don’t choose student, students choose company.”
Hearing this I must be proud on my college because he knows few facts as it was under 30 in up wipro came in my college. But he does not know wipro came but only to take written test. I don’t want to boast of my achievement that I have cleared the written test and still did not get any interview date. Because it was an inauspicious day I decided to sit in campus placement program and gave first written test of any company of my life and after coming out from room I called my papa and said him I have cleared the wipro’s written test. This day I changed my career plan and the consequence is that I will have to look a job. I wanted to come home as loser to live my dream, so that I could do business because the business I wanted to do, does not need any qualification it only wants determination, self trust, networking, interpersonal skill, assessing the peoples’ mind and vision. I am victim of college tactics and he is poor consumer who was tempted by advertisement and victim of corporate marketing as mpec invest a big part of its income in advertisements.
Yes, that guy was right but let me explain where he was right. College used to be under 30 and good visiting companies don’t select students from our college because our college system don’t polish the shortcoming of the students, so students’ skill don’t par with companies’ standards and students select company because no good company comes for campus placement so student select from alternative whether they have to sit or not.
I had to do duty of an ex mpecian and social worker. I had to save his future so I told him reality and gave him instance of myself and suggest him to go for recounseling .
When I detrained at Prayag station I was feeling good that at least I prevent that guy to being one from us. He will not face the question as we are facing. NOW WHAT?
