Date- 23 Feb, 2010
Time- 6:47 a.m.
The morning is cloudy like few images in my mind. Before few hours I heard thundering and the sound of drizzling through my window but in woken sleep state. I woke up because of a sweet dream. As I saw I am sitting with my college first crush in a park talking with her taking her hand in mine. “Oh shit this was only dream” when my mind woke up properly and I realized. Fan was rotating at its full speed and sensation of morning chills were touching me with my dreams in my open eyes some are practical and some are only dream what I have to bring into reality. How much I will have to suffer I don’t know but I am ready for worst. But I know my ambition, is bigger than those upcoming problems. Shhhhh morning chill and warm bed who the lazy will want to come out from that. So I kept delaying my alarm from 5 a.m. to 6:15 a.m. .
Finally I remembered my rule 21 “What the hell u r doing Kumar, be the winner of the bed” and I brought it into action, quickly jumped off from the bed touch the earth first and kissed it. And just appeared on my front room’s door and knocked the door to keep the value of my “OK” text and his msg “Bhai 6 baje jaga dena.” After that again rule 21 do what you like the most. I wanted to open www.shyamadvisory.com to help Papa but this want remained want because I did not find my modem. May be Sandy took that. Hmnm Sandy was being excited last night about the live cctv camera of white house which was showing the live video of white house and I was screaming at him “Abe marva doge” time to time till late night. No till morning 3 a.m. . But yet he kept including me his excitement by robbing my golden sleeping time again and again. When I got saturated from his activity I hold my hand before him and said “ mahraj hume sone do,” and slept.
After five minute “Abey utho yaar dekho yaar kya ho rha hai” still he did it.
“Mujhe link mail kar do bad me dekh lunga”. I asked and landed in never land.
This incident happens with me often because he has only authority to disturb me in my sleep. This time I am writing with smile on lips and a pain in heart thinking that who will rob my sleeping time as Sandy always does and I never mind. After few months there would be no such type of incident or activity that the guy lying on bed in just front room at the distance not more than 10 ft texting me “Bhai 6 baje jaga dena”. Yes I am spending twilight of my Btech life.
In these twilight days I am getting busier. I am making my own kingdom to live after this education. So soon because it is better to start earlier than delaying it further when I already have decided to do business in very beginning. What would I do when no company is visiting to this college? Those who visited, were not fulfilling my terms so I did not even appear in any of these companies written test. Because I have a bad habit to live my life on my own terms and I can’t negotiate with these terms even in worst condition. I never wanted to do job. This was my Papa who always wanted me to do job and at other side he is already to welcome my every will but I want to fulfill my Father’s wish but with my own condition as I am mirror image of my father. But above all he wants to see me happy in every condition even in bad situation seeing me struggling to resolve it. So I am confident he will not force me to do anything against my will. I know when I will tell him my plan he will get angry for one day and next morning he will definitely wake me up to give him company in jogging and to challenge my stamina.
Hmm I wanted to share one more thing with you people that I have some contact with those people since 1 year who are expert in making excuse. But what I can do? I believe on them and I have to admit their every excuse as truths. May be I will have to keep a man to send messages to those people who say to me that they don’t reply or forward messages. But they do this crap just right before my eyes. Still I believe on them because they say they don’t.
Oh! one thing also came in my mind that my few will wishers think that I am misguided. They asked me that I am heading on wrong way. I admit that I am misguided by my own instinct because I am taking U turn. Taking plunge is not so easy I understand the situation. Four years in engineering college. The most productive time of my life I spent in a confided campus. I am going in that field where engineering’s subjects don’t have any relation except some management subject. I think I need the proper definition of MISGUIDE word. Why this is different in two perspectives. Why this is different for different peoples? The people say me I became bad boy because I smoke and drink occasionally. If it is bad then the way I have to work to bring my dream into reality must be also wrong. I have to collect money so that I would not borrow any penny from any one. Sometimes failures in task give me frustration and I get tired because of exhausting continuous market analysis. Only one minute mistake ends up in heavy money loss and damages of my associative belief over me. If a boy drink to forget all those things for a night. Is this wrong? This is the life I have seen it from very close. And I could not understand it till now. It only taught me to remain silent and serious. And always a line what came in my mind when I try to understand it more.
“Ai jindagi chal tu hi bata de kaise tujhe jiya jaye, maan gaya ki mai galat tarike se ji rha hun”
Now my alarm is ringing this is 8 a.m. I can see the news paper “The Times of India” lying on the floor and this is the time to have a look over some national and international news and after that time to go in spiritual world mean to my temple mean to do exercise.
